No Excuses

I have let whatever is going on in my body, affect me- mind and body. Since February, I have worked out sporadically. But I've spent more time afraid, trying to let go of my security blanket (metaphorically), and trying to find out what was wrong than I did working out. 

But I am done with that. I can't let this affect me anymore.It's already taken it's toll on my mind and body since February. I can't go on living life afraid anymore. There was once a time I was fearless in more things than I am now. I'll always be afraid of elevators, but I am tired of being afraid of leaving my home. 

I miss running. I miss challenging myself to do better than yesterday. So my goal is to work out at least 30 minutes every day. If I do more than that, then great! But at least 30 minutes. 

I made it almost an hour today. I did Pilates, then ran for a mile before my left foot felt funny, and my body was getting tired. So I walked the last half mile. I always write on my other blog about doing this for me, but it's true. However, I can't just write it. I have to do it, to live it. Become it. And who knows? Maybe it will actually help everything in my body.