As always, it has been awhile since I have typed in this blog. Still have my same symptoms as before. In August, at my last appointment, I gave up searching for answers. My rheumatologist was adamant it was Fibro, so I just stopped wanting answers.
I actually stopped thinking about it all as much. Let go of the fear. Let go of the worry. Let go of the unknown. I had other things on my mind, such as...
Shortly after we got married, we began to try for our own family. It was a crazy few months. I had extracurricular activites, the hubs had poison ivy one month, just busy all around for awhile.
I knew right away in December that I was pregnant. I didn't feel like myself. But not wanting to jinx it, I didn't tell anyone other than the hubs. Soon, I knew I had to talk to someone, so I did tell my sister. She was a huge help! And of course, my other 2 best friends are also pregnant right now, so I had to tell them.
And then I called my rheum's office. This was literally right before 2016. They told me to start weening myself off the Cymbalta. I was told to take 1 dose every other day for the next 4 days, and then stop. I was worried, because I had already read up on the withdrawal effects, and know it could be horrendous. Luckily, I began weening myself a few days earlier, so when I finally did stop the meds, I had no withdrawal effects.
And you know what happened? I felt alive for the first time in 14 months. I felt that I could actually think with a more clear head, that I am remembering conversations again (which sucks when you are a person who remembers A LOT and can't because of medication). I can't say anymore, "I don't remember this conversation, I'm sorry."
I saw my rheum last week. Numbers are climbing, and he said they would throughout the pregnancy. As long as they are manageable, I am fine. Otherwise, I need to be seen. Unless something happens, I won't be seen until after the baby is born.
We had our first OB appointment today! It was awesome seeing the little peanut on the hand held monitor. We talked about my inflammation, what to take for sinus headaches, what not to eat, how to stay active, etc. The best part was just seeing the tiny baby on the hand held monitor. So surreal. I do pray the rest of my pregnancy goes well!
