I see the orthopedic sutrgeon this Friday. I still don't think it's carpal tunnel. So I decided to get a copy of my medical records from the hospital today, and see what the results said myself. While I am no doctor, I now have the information to share with doctors (even though they will have it, too). I now have the information to try to take matters into my own hands.
Armed with what I do know, the nerve test done says that I have cubital tunnel, not carpal tunnel. The ANA result came from the Lupus panel, not the RA panel. And while that doesn't mean anything, I feel it is propelling me towards finding answers.
I can't give up on me. I did go back and forth with the idea of just letting this go. But what if it gets worse? Or what if it is genetic, and it affects someone else in my family? Or when I have children? I can't just let it go, for my health, and maybe that of others. I still don't know exactly where I am going, but for the first time in almost a month, I feel good about going forward. I'm not at a stand still anymore. I felt utterly broken that day last month in the rheumatologist's office. I felt like it was me against the medical world, and no one was doing much to help me. I felt lost, confused.
So I see the rheumatologist next month. But I also know that if I don't feel he is being proactive towards my health, then I will see another rheumatologist. I'm already on the fence about this guy as it is.
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