A Partial Diagnosis

I met with an orthopedic surgeon on Friday. He confirmed that it was cubital tunnel, and not carpal tunnel. He said surgery is an option, but after consulting with him, I don't feel it's that bad yet. However, it could go bad if left untreated. By untreated, I mean, if I don't take care of myself. So I need to lose weight. He did say it could have been brought on by weight gain. I did gain back everything I lost last year, and I had wondered that for awhile now. So I now what I need to do, on that front.

The orthopedic surgeon also said that the numbness and tingly feelings I have had are from it. The swelling and hand pain? Not so much. So now I need to figure out what is causing that. And I will get to the bottom of this. I have to, for my health. He is prescribing a medication that will help the cubital tunnel as well as the inflammation I have. And boy, do I have lots o'inflammation in my hands and fingers today.

I woke up with more swelling than in the past few days, and hurting hands every so often. I'm in a sad mood today. I recognize the fact that I am depressed. I feel like giving up at times, like throwing in the towel and saying, "I can't do this." Other times, I am determined to do as much as I can to fight this- the cubital tunnel and whatever else is going on.

I'm not saying it's not okay to be down- because it is. I recognize that it isn't every day and it's just part of dealing with this, with my emotions. I'm strong, because I've faced other things in life and have overcome them. I can with this as well.

I did PiYo fundamental basics earlier, and I know that I will do alright with PiYo. I need to get back to at least 30 minutes of exercise per day. I also want to eventually train for running again. But I am going to take it all day by day with my body. I definitely need to do this the right way. While I don't eat fast food, or lots of sweets, or over-eating in general, I need to eat more of the right foods to better combat the inflammation, and eliminating the foods that tend to cause more inflammation or "flare ups." I need to educate myself about inflammation, treating it, etc.

My motto should be, "I can and I will."